My (Our) happy "Bordel" .. The place of my sanity

The surroundings of my new life is sometimes a bit messy but it is here where i feel most at ease ... the sort of place I have always felt at ease ... It is here where my heart is ... It is here where my happiness comes to fruition .. I just love to be part of it .. and of course it is where the love of my life is .... Pure Bliss!!


After settlement here in France and as it seems that time is slowing down a bit (a very little bit), i have thought a lot about my "old" motto in life: Carpe Diem - "seize the day" or more accurately "harvest the day" ... and i thought maybe it could be time to asses the motto and see its currency ..

Well, i suppose to reflect on the last year and a half .. from being emotionally at the bottom of the pit in a crevace where i could hide from reality, while keeping up a smile and an "everything is ok" .. to today when i am happier than i have ever been, when i had been given a chance at happiness that i thought was forbidden to ones such as myself .. i think how forgotten my old motto has become ....

and alas there is only a smile on my face as i realise that the motto is still true today ... i have been with a beautiful Princess, one that fulfills my every need and that covers me with her love and radiance like nobody before in my life ... it is like she is the female mirror of me and she shares and feels everything as i do ... and above all she loves me for who and what i am .. without the desire to change me ... we evolve and grow naturally together because we share a deep love for one another ..

.. and today as we both help each other deal with our past demons and the sadness that takes hold of us from time to time ... we have seized the day ... we have grabbed life by the balls and we have decided to take a chance to seek the happiness and fulfillment that we have sought in ourselves ... we are"soul sisters" ... two parts of the same mould ...

Before my wife died she told me that she wishes me to meet someone that can bring me this happiness .. and fulfillment .. today Vikki I have found her and i can see the smile on your face when you look down and see us together ..

To everyone that is stuck in a hole ... not seeing the light ... even though difficult: keep faith and seize the day!!!